Bye-Bye Bad 09, Hi-Hi Good 10

The last 365 days were not so good, but yet not too bad. Contradicting, am I? ;p

2009 was a bit dramatic, and I had a little too much of ups and downs in the 2nd half of the year, which I didn't quite welcome. However, I had ventured on something in the same year, and it was one that I thought I would never had the chance to do so in this life of mine.

So, does that explain everything? If I'm still not making sense, then please see what happened on my 2009 calendar.

The Not-So-Good:

1) Fell thrice within 2 months, and twice happened in the same damn place! Sprained my ankle and hurt my back (again!), it was pretty bad, so much so that I can no longer wear high heel shoes, and no more jogging for more than 30 mins.

2) I lost 2 of my beloved, my grandpa and cousin Kevin. They were gone quietly, and it was a shame that I was not there to be with them when they departed. But I know it was a relief for Grandpa, and I was happy for him. As for Kevin, it was too sudden, everyone was shocked. It was painful, but there was nothing anyone can do about it, except for accepting it and moving on with life.

3) My wonderful boss went back home to Norway in Aug 2008, since then, life was hard at work. It got worse day by day, month by month, and the worst came through after CNY. I guess Ms Garfield was too bored with life (yes, she's over 40 in age going 50 and unmarried!) plus maybe menopause, so all she can think of is about how to work us to death! And of course, with the help of Mr WWF who only has eyes for himself, and who loves to use vulgarities behind the back of many others whom he would smiled brightly to in their faces, they together built an empire of No-Returns-So-Go-to-Hell. But I decided to jump off the cliff despite knowing how stormy the ocean beneath it was, and all thanks to them, I'm still swimming in the choppy waters today. However, I have no regrets even though I have to tread water for somemore days or months.

The Not-Too-Bad:

1) I had some very very good times on 28 & 29 Aug with Mayday, my mighty Gods. They gave me new life, new inspirations everytime after their concerts. It is especially so for 2009 which I considered it as the worst year of all my 32.

2) New friendships blossomed, bad relationships amended and strengthened. I finally know who cares for me with true hearts, and found out who are my real friends. I think I'm a fortunate person.

3) I embarked on my most desired journey of writing, which I had never dreamt of doing it before year 2009. Although my lyrics have not yet been selected, I know I will make it soon becos' I had hang on and not give up even though I really felt like doing so every now and then; I know I'm not doing it very well, but I will do it better and better becos' I have been trying very hard even though I really had no inspirations so often. I know I can do it, becos' I believe I can do it.

A long list... that's my style. Haha.. naggy like an old lady. Ok ok, I'm finishing soon.

Before I sign off, and before this eventful year comes to an end, please allow me to extend my appreciation and gratitude to some important people who had made a difference to my life, no matter how insignificance it may be.

1) Thanks to Mum and Sis, who are always there for me especially in this year when I was really down on my luck. I know you are the ones whom I can always fall back on with no worries.

2) Thanks to all those who had put me down. If not for you, I would not have lost all confidence in myself but yet found the confidence all over again with those who really care. And most importantly, thank you for showing me who truly loves me.

3) Thanks to all who love me for who I am, and who had assured me that I will make it everytime when I felt like giving up.

Especially to Ashin who keeps reminding me of the Law of Attraction and that I can do it and am actually doing it very well, to VV who had told me not just once that she believes in me so I have to believe in myself too, to Monster who taught me how to do my best without feeling stressed up, to AL & MF & BG who generously offered their help when I needed it most, to Ah Mah & Karen who will now and then called or smsed just to make sure that I did not lose heart and give up, to Bro & D who always have me in their minds, to CZ & Mei who had helped to keep a lookout for job opportunites, to all my Aunts n Cousins who loves me so much since I was a kid and all the way to this day, to Eunmi who never forgets to get me nice stuffs and sent me emails of encouragement, to KK who is still trying his best and not giving up on me, and to many many many others who have extended your help to me in a way or another. I have you my in heart, I mean it, but you know my brain right? It just refuses to work harder ;p

Last but not least, I wish for all a good start in life with 2010! May the new year ahead brings along joy & happiness to you, and may it turn all your dreams into reality and all your efforts into great achievements!

Happy New Year!!!

一颗苹果

阿信說：活著不多不少，幸福剛好夠用。活著其實很好，再吃一顆蘋果。

我說：蘋果不多不少，生病剛好夠用。生病其實很好，再聼一顆蘋果。


一颗苹果

作詞:阿信 作曲:阿信

經過了漫長的等候　
夢想是夢想　我還是一個我
那時間忘記挽留　
最美時候　不經意匆匆的放過

曾經想擁抱的彩虹　
盛開的花朵　和那純真的笑容
突然有風吹過　
那一轉眼　只剩我　

我不懂　人世間的那些愁
他為什麼要纏著我　
這到底會是誰的錯　
還是我不放手

喔　人世間的那些愁　
這世界給我的幽默　
這是不是要告訴我　
潮起終究潮落　

總要有人來陪我　嚥下苦果
喔　再嚐一點美夢　
要等你先開口　
那冬天才會走

有些人經過我身旁　
住在我腦中　在我心裡鑽洞
有些人變成相片　
堆在角落　灰塵像雪一般冰凍

時間如果可以倒流　
我想我還是　會卯起來蹉跎
反正就這樣吧　
我知道我　努力過　

我想到　遙遠遙遠的以後
會不會有人知道我　
在這個寂寞的星球　
曾這樣的活過

喔　遙遠遙遠的以後　
天長和地久的盡頭　
應該沒有人能搶走　
我永遠的感動　

總要有一首我的歌　大聲唱過
喔　再看天地遼闊　
活著不多不少　幸福剛好夠用
活著其實很好　再吃一顆蘋果

不好

病還沒好，聲音失蹤了，很痛苦，錢包也很辛苦。
工作又沒了，歌詞寫不出來，就連吃葯睡覺竟然也可以睡不好。

唉，我的人生到底發生什麽事？

累病了，病累了

自從7月沒工作之後，就不生病了，每天吃得好睡得好，把自己養得白白胖胖的。

但是，不知道爲什麽，自從11月開工之後，病痛又開始找上門來了。食物中毒、拉傷背部、發燒、咳嗽、喉嚨痛、傷風、感冒... 一個一個輪流來拜訪。

想不通。到底是操勞過度，還是心理因素？

鼻涕不停地流，眼皮因爲受藥物的影響開始下垂（又或者是地心引力？？），呵呵。

好啦，是應該睡了，真的很累。

Zzzz...